Anyway.
(There I go on a tangent again, and I've barely even started this post. Yes, my brain can be a scary place... I believe we already established that some time ago.)
Ok... current reflections to follow, but first, here's the post:
Hi Fran,
I think I came here today to read this post. I don't think I really have any good insight to offer in regards to your specific situation, or anything like that, but I find it interesting that I had an impulse to come to the group today (which I haven't done in... well, a very long time) and then I come across this post and it resonates. "Say something!"
So... hmmm. (Adding this bit after writing a lot of stuff below: Obviously, this whole reply is not in direct response to what you've written. You asked if other people are experiencing what you are, and you've gotten a lot of replies validating that they are indeed. This is just really my thought trajectory sparked by your question, but not really in answer to it. Ie: I in no way believe that this has anything to do with what you were seeking when you wrote your note, and I totally know mileages will vary.)
My experiences of things I've done over the last few years have lent themselves to a few over-arching themes.
The major one being that "Reality is. It's not a question of what I want to change, as much as it is a question of how I am going to deal with it." I have created a reality, by drawing it to myself, so to get what I meant to get out of it, I have to look at it head on. Reality is. Period. I should note my inner responses, discover their causes and work to understand myself. But I still have to accept that Reality Is. The other part of it is that Reality is the Effect. Not the Cause. If I want my reality to change, I have to know myself and what I'm doing. If I don't do that, I'll just keep creating the same reality over and over.
So, for me, the big questions that keep popping up have similar answers... and I'm getting a lot of questions from people. The answer for me... I've learned it the super-hard-way... is well... just face the reality that everyone is going to pick what they pick. They're going to do it. The question is are you going down with their ship?
That's how I'm handling the economic turmoil. Everyone is going to do what they do. Congress is feeding us a huge crap sandwich, which will drive the economy into a further tailspin. It's what people want to do. It's like a ship going down while everyone cartoonishly tries to run to the highest spot on the deck hoping they'll get rescued. They won't.
So, for me, then the question is not about worrying about the country. It will survive, after a painful way of learning what we need to learn, the basic concept will survive. My job is to make sure I can swim. Isn't the whole purpose of the Elias thing to be about people learning not to lean on "authority" and to rely on themselves?
Remember this?
"The emphasis is shifting, literally, from that of authorities and certain individuals as the directors of masses and groups of individuals into the expression of the reality being directed by the individual. The emphasis is moving into the expression of focusing the attention and appreciation, and recognizing the worth of the individual and the abilities of the individual.
You shall be directing of your reality, individually and intentionally, in an objective manner, rather than allowing yourselves to be dictated to by mass beliefs or authority figures that you have set as your examples or your directors previously.
In this, you offer yourselves tremendous freedom and new opportunities to be exploring this physical dimension and what you may be creating within this physical dimension in a much more expansive manner, allowing you to move within consciousness without limitation, but continuing the blueprint or the design of this particular physical dimension."
That was session 846b... the Website video session .
My interpretation of that has always been that the "authorities" are going to seriously over-reach and create a huge crash-and-burn scenario. There's pretty much no other way for authoritarian systems to give up power. They won't unless they have to. So, in one form or another, the authorities are going to try to control everything, and we will all escape like tiny little termites.
But not before a lot of people get hurt (the "trauma" we're trying to avoid for ourselves by learning what we need to learn earlier than we otherwise might). And my personal belief is that the more the "authorities" try to "do something!" the worse the hurting is going to be. They'll try to squeeze the life out of the country if they have to in order to hold onto power. And, again, in my mind and interpretation, that's not something I need to fear, it's just the reality I need to accept, because that is human nature.
We aren't shifting to get away from human nature. We're shifting to become self-directed and accepting of human nature and the choices of others, in my interpretation. I don't have to try to fix the authorities or try to make them understand. They'll figure it out when we all slip between their fingers like a handful of sand. I just have to decide they aren't controlling my choices. I don't have to try to bring a lifeboat around to everyone in a panic. I just need to offer my opinion if I'm asked. My opinion is always "look at reality, accept that it is real, and make a decision based on that." I trust that in the end, we will in fact end up with a whole lot of shifting going on. I just can't direct it or decide how anyone else is going to shift. I'm responsible for my own shifting. No one else's.
I can't emphasize this enough: It's all my interpretation in this note, and I am very sure it isn't going to find a lot of agreement in the world at large, but it does give me peace in the world's turmoil.
So given that, the question is what do I think will happen as the authoritarian systems crumble and engage their war against the individual to avoid losing power, and what plan do I have to address it on the personal level? Step one of our plan started a couple of years ago. The handwriting has been on the wall on the economy for quite a while... so our plan (Mike's and mine), was "get the hell out of debt." We've also got a plan for if things get bad enough economically that our families have to start combining households. None of us are there yet, but it could happen. And these plans aren't being made in a frenzy of panic, they're just like a reality check more than anything. "What would we do if..." "What skills would be beneficial to have anyway?" It's like a pilot taking off in a plane... he always is checking where he'd land if the engines go out. He's not panicking thinking the engine is going out... he's just making sure he knows how he'd handle it in that moment. "Can't do it... we'll be in the Hudson." (Amazing transcript of that flight, btw... he said it like he was saying "I'll meet you at the grocery store.")
Reading up on the depression has also been a tremendous help. I just got done with Amity Shales's "The Forgotten Man." And it really illustrates that those who don't know their history are doomed to repeat it. Everything that's being done now economically was tried then... all the beliefs about the economy showing up in the "stimulus (hah!) package" were "new ideas" in the 30's. It didn't work then, and it won't work now. Problem is, the hero image of FDR is the history that people remember. What they don't remember is his war on individual success, and the "capital strike" that resulted. Knowing what the authorities are going to be aiming for, lets me assess where I stand in relationship to it, and make decisions with that in mind.
So... this was a long-winded way of saying... I've felt what you feel. But now, for me, I know it's a stormy sea and that I've got the tools to survive it. I found the tools when I most needed them, and discovered the hard way that I am a pretty damned impressive being. And that makes it ok for the sea to be stormy. Makes it more like an experiment and less like the end of the world. But I still am learning about new tools that I've discovered in the meantime... looking at the next big thing and rushing out to play with my tools.
Sorry to be so wordy. But... that's me. :-)
Love,
Cath :-)
So... current reflections. Note again... this was nearly two years ago. At that time, the Tea Parties hadn't seriously begun to fight. Also, I always go at everything from the inside-out, so I was keeping my interpretation very personal then. There are always mass events, mass movements, of course, and I feel a strong affinity for the movement of the Tea Party masses, who have chosen not to go down with the foolish and idiotic ship of state, who have chosen to let the "Powers That Be" understand that "no" means "NO." And I lend energy to that effort in my own small way with my little signs and my little votes, but my own personal efforts usually look inward first. It's just the way I roll. Now though, I'm really enjoying seeing a sort of massive wave of individuals choosing for themselves, and this wave that's getting stronger intersecting with the actual here-and-now reality.
It wasn't a pebble tossed into the ocean of reality yesterday. It was a meteor.
I woke up this morning thinking "So it begins."
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